I don't like me I want to change,
This life is all but over and dying fast,
Can anybody see that I'm not here,
And does anybody care that I'm now leaving forever?
Subtle neuron swings about,
To trigger all that I know,
Everything I love and care for,
Does that include you, do you know?
More than a hundred I want only a few,
Friends cause despair and provide but nothing anymore,
Can I be recluse and still happy,
Nothing to lose if I'm already discontented.
One but pure and so far away,
Can another be cleansed by me and welcomed here,
To give away is to take some more,
I no longer wish to speak to them.
I wish that I could sell it all,
Keep only what really interests me,
Is anybody out there that really knows,
If there is how will they ever find me.
If I killed them all would you then hate me,
If I held your hand would you want to be with me,
If I opened your mind would you let me in,
And if I close the door will they all go away.
No more numbers and no more silly games,
No more meeting in the darkened room to drown,
No more long walks in the foresaken wilderness,
And no more, just no fucking more of anything.
I don't have stability and I don't have your sanity,
Let me be a different me and go a different way,
Change the essence of my existance to another way,
One more day draws by and I can't help but think about change.